Every time I write an essay I get a dehabilitating sense that I’m no god at anything. I am disappointing a person I respect, once more, and I cannot do anything to redeem it because I am inadequuate. That is how I am feeling. Why can’t I write this dumb essay?

Why can't I write this dumb essay? why why hwy why? I feel sad. I feel like crying.

stupid essay. You've a much to big a hold on me. I'm just gonna get you done. Because, really, it's not what matters. It's not it's not it's not it's not it's not.

Just get it done. Above all, just get it done.